“whether we make good or bad decisions, at least 15 or 20 people are affected directly or indirectly,” says Morrie.
It was the same afternoon when I mentioned to him my desire to go to China.
I remember having to make a decision almost about a year ago.
It was at the pool at SRC, NTU. It was a difficult decision.
It happened twice that year. When I felt great injustice. When I felt and thought the fault was not mine.
But it was affecting my prayer life. I had to ask for and receive forgiveness.
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I was doing BS that day when I heard myself saying that “many Christians like to quote the verse where it says ‘all things work together for the good of those who love Him’ or “you will be the head and not the tail, above and not beneath.’ “
We don’t realise that while our salvation is a free gift, His promises are conditional. Deuteronomy 28 says that these promises come if we are WILLING and OBEDIENT.
We like to claim the good without looking at the verses in context. All things work for the good, but ONLY for those who walk according to His purpose. The second half of Deut 28 promises the curses of disobedience which we often try to avoid. We like to think that we had a Daddy God, sometimes being overboard enough to forget that He is a holy God. The curses are one and a half page on my bible. Compared to half a page for the blessings. (see Deut 28)
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I picked up the phone. Dialled the number. Gave myself less than 5 minutes to reguretate what I rehearsed for the last 20mins then. Immediately, there was a sense of release.
Then God reminded me that, ultimately, when I release him, I release myself. It was a pivotal point of my life at that time, having then doubts about His goodness and my struggle with trust.
Much is vague to me now. Except that I’ve learnt to obey slightly more readily. And the impact of that decision is appalling.
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And the impact on those who make bad decisions.
When someone chooses to give bad attitude in a group, the atmosphere changes. Immediately.
Someone says something depressing. The synergy of healthy fellowship will be drained.
Looking further, imagine a leader backslide. The people affected will go beyond the immediate members. It stretches, puts pple in other groups into serious thought. Impact which sometimes cannot be detected until a long time.
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Sunday was an extremely tiring day for me. And as I walked towards meeting Johnson’s cg, meimei and yang, I decided to smile. It was draggy for me. Then when I saw (or rather, imagined) them enthusiastic to receive me, I just waved violently in reply.
We had a fun time.
Carry your countenance well, family of God and friends who watch this blog.
We are all made in the image of God.
Let our light so shine before man. Your decision can make u a living, walking bible. It’s something I’m aiming towards.
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Something lighter:
My IMF duties ended abruptly tonight. Got a phone call..
and..
I NEED SLEEP..
While I appreciate all the catching up and social time after many of the shifts… I think I need to be a little more faithful to my mortal body. Haven’t been eating at the right time or amount. Or resting.. enough.
Need to run. And perhaps pick up a sport. Grace briefly mentioned she’ll teach me ping pong.
Haha. Going out of shape. It’s entering into a NEED stage. Which is disgusting.
Meimei promised to run with me. Ha. Will drag her down this coming week.
At this time, I’m still at Bugis macdonalds.
Shall sign off here. Before they throw me out.
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Choose to do the right thing, even at the expense of your emotions. The way you carry your life will affect others in ways you never knew would. – Caleb Trevor
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