My Side of the Story

It indeed gets harder. We don’t talk.

As I move on from the bittersweet past, I feel within me a tinge of regret for a lost friendship. I don’t wonder what I will do if today is my last day. Because the only regret I have if I were to be called home to the Lord today will be the reconciliation I have not seen between us.

It may not even matter to you. But it matters to me.

I think enough time has passed.
Perhaps…

… if you are ready that is.

I don’t know. It’d be a shame if I don’t even try..

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Testing

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"Every adversity, every failure and every heartache carries with it the seed of an equivalent or a greater benefit"- Napoleon Hill

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Year 2 Semester 1

This must be the best semester in school- yet, of course.
I was pleasantly surprised and very encouraged by the number of familiar people I met in NTU. Many secondary school, jc, CHC and army friends.
Met them one after another. Simply amazing.

And yes. My timetable, which was planned by the Administrator, is great.
Got to work with my cousin Fia for the first time.

The other day we were at Queensway. Then I told her that I will never in my life dreamt that we’d be working together like that. Lol. Cousins in the same class, doing projects together. Cool huh? I’m not sure. Just happy.

There is also the Singapore 2006 to look forward to. Although it’s lesser (I think) than the Russian experience, I’m sure there is/are exciting thing(s), people/person to be energized about. Well, at least I heard there’ll be a Minister lodging at our place.

Picked up the uniform for IMF at Nanyang Audi today. The jacket was awfully huge. Ha. Nonetheless… it’s M now. I wonder if my tummy fats will challenge the integrity of the buttons that’s holding the suit in place.

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By God’s grace, I will manage this semester well with the various demands on my time. I must not be faster than what I can handle. Planning is important. So is timing. Must develop good revision habits. Must think of GPA more often this sem. While I don’t equate success with academic acheivement, I believe what I wrote will weigh more when I excel in it myself.

Feeling excited each day going to school. I wonder why.

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Going back to ACJC tmr to meet my econs teacher. Haha. Never imagined I will go back invited.

And… It’s lesson 3 for the Bible Study at YMCA tmr!

Value quality fellowship these days. Mentor says that as we grow older, we seek depth in relationships, in contrase with width and variety when we were younger. I see a lot of value in spending time with people who will shape my thinking towards my calling in Him, challenging my assumptions and holding me accountable for the things that I do. Hardy’s been a great brother’s keeper.
Sunday noon fellowship was amazing. I look at those at the table in wonderment: Randy, Jimmy, Hardy, Hendry, Sandra, Zhiyong, Lijun, Shun Ai, Randolph, Randy, Melvin, Sujia, Hongtat and Guna.

I’m blessed. : )

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That $50 000 Question

Sent an sms last night to some of my close friends, mentors and associates:

“Given $50 000 now, how would you spend it to fulfill your dreams? “

Some interesting first imputs:

R (ORD-ing NS man) : “Probably.. clear my study loan and save a portion of it for wedding and invest the rest in some shares.. why?”

R2 (a teacher to be): “.. invest .. in an air pilot course.. some in highly profitable investments, and also in personal development courses. After tithing.: > “

J (a business man studying in NTU): “I’ll buy a land, take a loan and develop it.”

H (an insurance agent): “Cash or CPF?”

H (a big time options trader): “30K fixed D. 15 in W. 5k in shares. for this year.”

S (mentor in the mktplace): “In what context?”

S (lawyer): “Keep in de bank. It is not enough to buy a car or an apartment.”

S (GE AM): “Money is just but a means to an end.. they are the army of your game… Why you kena 4D huh… wats up?”

What’s yours? Tell me on Tagboard!

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Was gathering ideas for the Starhub contest. Post it because i tot the replies were interesting. Quite telling about their vocations. Haha. Er. Don’t try to copy the ideas here. I took the best from this lot and submitted under my name. Muahahah.

Yea. If any of you guys win this contest, remember to give me 10%. I will give 10% to the one who told me about it too!

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Anyone keen to buy new books? Can get from me 30-40% cheaper than normal retail price. For bestsellers and newbooks only.

For a start, readers of this blog get 25% off one full price book from Borders.

Valid till 7th Sept.

Many thanks to Shan (whom I’m not authorized to link-yet ) for this complimentary gift. We must share good things/links!

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Today is Thursday

A friend (let’s call this friend W) smsed me on my way home.

W: I hear u think u’re ready for..?

Me: Oh. Where do you hear? Lol. I’m ready.. To start feeling romantic. Lol

W: giggles. and who might the recipent of ur romantic feelings be?

Me: Er.. Dunno. Ha. Not giving anyone yet. Just happy cos the feeling is exhilarating. Lol.

W: Sounds… phenomenal. :> I imagine she will be e happiest lady ever lived.

Me: I hope. Ha. Waiting for His timing. Just happy to feel things again.

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Spirit of Enterprise 2006

I’m amazed at the quality of writing by Shan, Jd and Ting!

Support their nominees here!

“The Spirit of Enterprise promotes and advances entrepreneurial spirit in Singapore by honouring local self-reliant entrepreneurs operating small and medium-sized businesses. We also serve to inspire Singaporeans, especially the young, to become entrepreneurs by facilitating interaction, communication and knowledge dissemination between students, the entrepreneurs and the general public. “

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My Mom’s Love Language

Dinner Conversation

Me: “Mom, how do you feel loved?”

Mom: “Why?”

Me: “Just ask lo. Don’t know if whatever I am doing make you feel loved anot.”

Mom: “You got girlfriend is it?”

Me: “No la! Just ask. Cos everytime buy you give you machiam like don’t like what I buy.”

Mom: “You did something wrong outside?”

(Exasperation. The problem of not talking to your mom like that in 22 years)

Me: “No.”

Mom: :”Then why you ask?”

Me: ” Don’t want to spend my time trying to make u feel loved then realise I’m wasting my time only to find out you don’t feel loved. So, do you feel loved?”

Mom: ” Ya. ” (thanks)

Me: ” How do you feel loved? Do you feel love when I spend time with you? Or when I buy you gifts. Some moms feel happy when they see their sons make it in life.”

Mom: “What did you do wrong?”

Me: “Others feel they are loved when their sons tell them “I love you.”"

Mom: “What’s wrong with you? Tell me.”

Me: ” Do you feel happy when I bring you out?”

Mom: “Ya. Bring me out, go and eat. Don’t need to do anything. Just be obedient.”

Me: ” So, am I obedient?”

Mom: “Yea.”

Me: “ok”

(finally)

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Good news! I think I’m ready!
Pass the blog test! Heehee. Ask me if you want to know what this is. If I dun want to say, just change subject, cos I probably don’t want tell you. lol

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ENFJ

I saw Shan doing the Jung Typology Test, here’s my results.
Interesting. Another guy’s analysis is here.
Is this accurate? Comments?

Sometimes I use personality test to find out more about myself.
Often I wish I had “better” results.
lol. But my personality is designed to fulfill my destiny.
So I’m still unique.

To quote Cartman: “Whatever, whatever, I do everything I want!”

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